Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Innocence


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I talk to my nephew over Skype, at least once in two days. He is 4 months old and doesn’t realize that he is talking to me on the webcam. It takes him a few minutes to identify me, but once he knows he is talking to his favorite aunt, he gets really happy. He lifts his hands with a smile, indicating that he wants me to lift him up in my arms, hug and kiss him. And after a while of trying hard, when he finds that I don’t lift him up, he gets sad and cries. After a while he tries again.
He doesn’t know what a computer or a webcam is. But his love is so genuine. He is not egoistic. It doesn't matter to him, who takes the first step when it comes to showing emotions. He just does what he feels like. If he loves someone and wants to be loved, he just asks for it. He doesn’t pretend, he is not embarrassed to show his sadness when he is upset. He lives in the moment, happy when he is loved, sad when he is ignored. Is this what one calls innocence?
Why do we become so complicated when we grow up? Why are we so scared of falling in love? Why are we so easily embarrassed about small things, scared of showing our real self to the world and hence pretend? Where does our innocence disappear? At what point in our life do we forget how to live in the moment?