Have you ever wondered how you became someone you never wanted to be? That you do things which you absolutely hated in the past and could never see yourself doing it ever.
I feel these emotions sometimes. Have I just become more broad minded or have I just grown up? Or have I just lost what I used to be?
Do I really want to go back in the past and become what I was once again?
May be not.
I'm happy that life once again turned out to be unpredictable and taught me new things to appreciate. I don't want to forget the good things of the past but I want to give life the chance to teach me and to prove my existing thoughts to be wrong.
p.s The title reminds me of Dr. E. Good memories :)
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Well.....for about a year or so, even I have had such feelings. In fact, I feel EXACTLY like this (and I always thought I was the only one).
ReplyDeleteI won't really say life "proved me wrong". That's partly because I do not think there is too many things which could be defined as "right" or "wrong" in absolute terms. What I used to think in the past was very right. And what I think now is equally right (although inconsistent with the former). It's just that life has shifted me from one way of thinking to the other.
But when it comes to whether I would want to go back to those times....honestly, I do not know. Or rather, I do know, and the answer is more like a sinusidal function (except that it is even more random). Of course I am happy the way I am. But would I be happier if I was what I always wanted to be? Still waiting for an answer...
I agree with you that there is no absolute right or wrong and it all depends on the situation. I wonder too if I would have been happy being what I always wanted to be.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was young I had more strong views. But, now I have learnt to be more braod minded.
Thanks for your comment.
I gather this was one of those 'notes to myself' kind of posts. :) Like them~ No comments though. There is no rt or wrong to this one. What you feel is what you get ;)
ReplyDeleteThoughts,
Let them flow...
When we first went to the US in the early 1990, with little one, one of my Professors said "You will never be the same again". At that time I did not understand him. But how right he was! Lost some of my innocence as well, but I guess found a whole new world.
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